It’s a very humbling experience to be placed in a position that everything that you need to do….for you…..must be done by someone else. Such was the case recently, the particulars will remain private but the bottom line, I was left in a state that I was completely at the mercy of those around me. A 90 minute surgery went 4 hours and after that point, we were off to the races.
I will (eventually) be better than I was but I must share there is surely something bigger than us out here and when they decide to step in and play havoc…..havoc will indeed come in and play.
I have been on my own sinceI was 20. I’m self-sufficient to the point of stubborn and when you get to a point and your body says, ‘Nope, not gonna happen”, the results are pretty scary. When I saw the surgeon and asked, “how’d we do?”. I learned, first of all, don’t expect a rhetoric answer unless you are sure the question is one. “My part went fine.” The implication’s, of course, were that someone else’s job had not gone so well……and that was the truth. I do not do well-being done for; or people doing FOR me. But for now, I have no choice but to allow others to do that which I cannot do for myself. I actually really even enjoy giving Christmas presents way more than receiving them. But for now I have no choice, the road will be long, it ended up the way it did, and here we are, recovering.
So this has lent me time to think, how well do our kids, diabetes or no diabetes, realize just how much was done for them and is done for them? How much we do as parents that, dare I say, is taken for granted. Diabetes supplies, insulin, school trips, needed supplies, “I have nothing to worry about, Mom’s got this”. “Mom’s my lifeline”. Really?What if life suddenly changes for/on mom? It would impact many I’m sure.
If there is one thing I learned over the last few days, is that ‘the best there ever was’ can have an off day and THAT can impact your life forever. The people around you are all you have and there will be a time that you will need them……bet on it. Make sure they know you care for them because when you look at them as they cradle you and tell you everything will be all right, it is at THAT moment of helplessness you find out how lucky you are that there are those who love you and care enough……….no matter what.
I’m one of those fortunate enough to have those people in my life and I thank them from the bottom of my heart.